Simplify

Yummm. Chili for dinner. Last night after I started to collapse from exhaustion, I went over to my parent's house so that my mom could wake me up before she went to work. That didn't exactly go as planned. Of course, trying to wake up after only 2 1/2 hours sleep isn't the easiest thing in the world, so I overslept and only had 3 hours to prep for the Vega meeting at 2. But it went well, and now have to prep for tonight's meeting.

Now, I'm at home trying to relax before I go back to work. I'm just going to write here for a while so that I don't have to think about Vega.

So Dan is throwing a party for everybody again on Saturday. I'm not sure if I want to go. As much as I want to go and hang out with everyone, especially since Mieko is going to be leaving for Japan, I'm not sure that I want to take the risk of ... everything all over again. I've had enough "interesting" endings of evenings at Dan's. I don't want to pursue any others. I'm tired of worrying about Dand and everything. I just want to have fun. I want to hang out with my friends as well. I think I'll just see how things are on Saturday. I need to get some sleep this weekend and catch up on my reading for class, no matter what.

I obviously didn't run this morning. Plus the weather is now all rain. Depressing. Oh, well. Basically I've been working inside for hours and hours so it doesn't matter. My sense of time is all distorted. I feel like its only about 1 or 2 in the afternoon and now its nearly 8 pm. I can't wait until I can get things back in place. I am really ready for my real summer to start. I am working hard to get there. I am working hard to be a hard worker. Life is simpler than you think it is. I need to simplify my life.




I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. He will put some things behind, will pass an invisible boundary; new, universal, and more liberal laws will begin to establish themselves around and within him; or the old laws be expanded, and interpreted in his favor in a more liberal sense, and he will live with the license of a higher order of beings. In proportion as he simplifies his life, the laws of the universe will appear less complex, and solitude will not be solitude, nor poverty poverty, nor weakness weakness. If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.
- Henry David Thoreau