Weirdness

So tonight I was totally overcome by this strange feeling. A cross between a panic attack, a sense of doom, and the feeling that Chris and/or Dan were trying to get in touch with me. I've felt this way before, thinking back, but it always happened while I was dating Chris and talking with him really helped calm me down. Tonight, I was all alone at the deli, cleaning the slicers. My heart was beating so hard and my breath was a little short. I tried to call Madeline at work but the number was busy until I tried 20 minutes later. My sister helped calm me down and assure me that I wasn't going mad for flipping out over nothing. I've had some crazy "coincidences" in my life before - knowing that Chris was calling me, knowing that something was wrong, so I wasn't sure what to think tonight. I kept thinking about Dan. I am going crazy. This is not normal and I'm so not happy with myself for not being over him. Or am I? I don't know. I just hope Chris is ok in Kyrgystan. I really hope nothing has happened. Maybe its just the moon, it is nearly full.

Last night I dreamed that Dan asked me to start going out again. I also dreamed I could swim like a seal, and that two people who were drug mules had to have surgery to remove clothes made of flesh from their stomachs - and that is only what I can remember. I have vague recollections of other things as well. My dreams are so weird.

Other life events
- Was late for my nanny job (a headache I don't want to go into)
- My car needs another $400 worth of work and is leaking oil
- Called Kurt but haven't heard back from him (one of the people I need to apologize to)
- Got a new bra and underwear set (Sorry for the information you prolly don't really need, but I love them - they're peachy pink, ME, who doesn't wear pink nearly at all!) I can't remember the last time I got a new bra.
- Went out and played pool again, had too much to drink again, got a good ride home again. It was fun, and at least the start of a social life. But only Aaron, Dave, and me.
- New plans for a Jane Austen Regency dress in the works.